October 08, 2014

Third Trimester Thoughts

Instead of posting a pregnancy update, I thought I'd share some general (and somewhat random) thoughts and experiences right now.

  • I recently joined an infertility support group on Facebook that I found through the blog Sawdust and Embryos (you can read about it here). The group was just started, and everyone has been sharing their battle story. One woman's story struck me so hard. She dealt with years of infertility, finally got pregnant, and went into labor at 38 weeks. But she knew something was wrong, and she and her husband rushed to the hospital only to find out that the baby had no heart beat. An emergency c-section was preformed, but her baby girl had already died about 3-5 hours before she arrived at the hospital. Other women have been sharing their discouragement about multiple IVF attempts failing or working, but ending in miscarriage. Now, I'm not sharing this to be a Debbie-downer, but it really hit me. The whole time we couldn't get pregnant, I thought, "Why us? Why has God chosen us to go through this? Why us?" And now, after reading some of the stories in this group, I'm left thinking, "Why us? Why, Lord, did you choose to give us a baby, and not all of these other couples who want it so badly." Obviously, He knows the answer, and I may never, but it reminds me to continue to be grateful, not that I needed to much reminding, but I'm surprised at how easy it is becoming to take this gift for granted already. 

  • On a related note, Cai hasn't even been born yet, and I'm already starting to get nervous about doing a frozen embryo transfer for subsequent babies. It will be hard not just assume it will work since we got pregnant on our first attempt. I know it's silly to worry about it now, (don't get me wrong; I'm not freaking out or anything), but it has crossed my mind. We have four frozen babies left, and it's a strange thought to think we could end up being a family of seven total, or end up having an only child. I'm sure we'll learn to be content either way, but it's a strange thought.

  • In general, it's a strange feeling to feel so far beyond all of the pain of infertility, yet still so connected to it. It had become a part of my identity, which isn't really a good thing, and it's strange to feel so far past it. At the same time, I know it's not over, but even if we can't ever get pregnant again, it will be different than it ever was before because we'll have Cai.

  • Over the years, every time I heard someone complaining about the third trimester of their pregnancy, I always kind of felt like they must be exaggerating. Especially the complaints about not being able to sleep well. I'm learning very quickly that they are not. I don't sleep well between peeing constantly, having to wake up to roll over, a husband who starts snoring every time I wake up, and my mind running a mile a minute when I try to fall back to sleep. And I'm huge. Seriously, people need to stop telling me that I look like I'm ready to go any minute because that's going to make it really difficult if I go late! I'm also dealing with what I think is Pelvic Girdle Pain which has something to do with the joint in the center of your pelvis getting a little too loose because of the relaxin your body is producing. It makes my legs feel like they're going to kind of wobble off sometimes. It causes pretty significant pain when I roll over, walk up stairs, and walk in general. I've read that wearing my pregnancy support belt can help a little bit. Boppy Tummy Support Maternity Band with TheraPearlI've also changed the way I sit and how I get in and out of the car or roll over. And I've been doing more pelvic floor exercises because that's supposed to help too. I need to talk to the doctor about it though because it can affect delivery and the position they want you to push in.

  • I bought a birthing ball, aka an exercise ball. I've been sitting on it as much as I can instead of sitting on the couch. It's supposed to help in multiple ways including helping with the PGP pain, giving Cai room to turn (he's transverse right now), and help baby engage once he is in the right position. It helps with back pain too. I'm really enjoying using it. The hospital where I deliver will also provide one when I deliver to help with delivery. Here are some of the sources I've used as reference for how to use the ball:

  • I found this tutorial on how to make reusable cloth wipes from flannel sheets. I plan to use cloth wipes at home since we're going to try to use cloth diapers. It seems to make sense since it would be annoying to throw wipes away in on pail and cloth diapers for washing in a separate pail. It makes sense to throw them all in the same spot. On the same note, my aunt and uncle bought me this diaper pail that I registered for which is supposed to be great and can work for cloth or disposable diapers and doesn't require and special bags. 

  • Heartburn is ridiculous. Last night I was actually afraid it would burn a hole in my esophagus. And I'm still throwing up some days. I actually threw up in my driveway this week because I didn't think I could make it to the bathroom. 

  • I really want to buy this for Cai because I love flannel and babies in flannel= stinking adorable.

  • I'm perpetually hungry. Like ALL. THE. TIME. It's a little annoying.

  • I'm loving my husband's new schedule. I actually get to see him for significant amounts of time. Today, for example, he stopped after work to pick up some things, grab dinner for us, and get his hair cut, and he's still home an hour before he would have been at Walmart. I love it.

  • My stretch marks are ridiculously ridiculous. There is no describing how gross they look. I keep telling myself, "oh well."

  • As I mentioned earlier, Cai is transverse right now. He was head down at my thirty week ultrasound, so the doctor hasn't really said anything, but it makes me a little nervous. It also means that at any given moment his little but or his little head is trying to bust out of my tummy creating a huge lump and some pain. It's awesome seeing my whole belly move when he does, but boy can it be uncomfortable. Last night I switched from the bed to the couch and when I laid down, the side of my belly wasn't quite touching the couch. Cai kicked really hard and I swear it felt like he was trying to stand on the couch. I'm convinced he's an abnormally strong baby.

  • My college roommate got married last weekend in England (where her husband is from) and is having an American ceremony in Eerie this weekend. I'm so excited for her, but I'm really sad because we won't be able to make it. Steve has to work the day of the wedding, and we decided it probably wasn't smart for me to drive up there by myself at this point (especially because we are without insurance until the first of the month because of the job change). On a brighter note, because we couldn't make it, Steve's brother and his family are visiting this weekend. Steve will have to work for some of the time that they're here, but not so much that they won't be able to spend time with him. I'm looking forward to seeing them.

I think that's it for the rambling right now. Thanks for reading!

September 27, 2014

Pregnancy Update: 32 Weeks

How far along: 32 weeks! 5 to go until I'm full term, 8 until I'm a full 40 weeks

Showing: I'm waddling. I

Weight Gain: 22 lbs.+  I'm not sure how much past that I am right now.

Maternity Clothes: Yes.

Food I'm Eating/Craving: Everything

Things that Make me Sick: Bending over to put laundry in the washer or dryer. The smell of some of the bouquets of flowers left over from my shower (My sister bough a gazillion flowers).

Other symptoms: Still muscle/round ligament pain in the lower sides of my belly off and on. Back pain. Fatigue, Not sleeping. Started having crazy dreams again including one about crazy looking porcupines that attacked me. Oh, and one where I was taking care of a baby (I don't think it was mine, and I seemed to be still living at home with my family), and my youngest sister didn't think I should be breast feeding it because all I was eating for breakfast was an English muffin. So one morning, she took the baby before I woke up, and when I woke up I literally attacked her and started screaming in her face that it was my decision not hers. Geez.

Pregnancy Brain: I just left the oven on. Luckily Steve saw it.

Miss anything? I've always been a light sweat-er. Some days I could get away with not wearing deodorant. I miss that. Sometimes I can still smell my pits in the shower after I've soaped up, so I have to wash them again. And I'm soaked with sweat ten minutes after leaving the shower. Sigh. 

Best moment: Steve has off this weekend at his new job. Plus he was home by 4:30 on Friday, so I feel like he had off Friday too. It's SO nice to have him home!

Movement:  My son is violent. I think he's convinced that if he pushes against my belly hard enough, he'll be able to pop right through. It hurts.

Gender: It's a boy! Cai Alexander.

Happy or moody most of the time?: Mood swings are still better, but I had some major anxiety yesterday for several hours. My heart rate went up; I couldn't seem to cool off; and I couldn't sit still. At one point I called my best friend and asked her to tell me some funny stories about her sons to distract me. It helped, and I was so thankful that I happened to catch her while they were riding the train at the zoo, so she was able to talk. By the time Steve came home though, I was a little frantic and didn't know what to do with myself. His presence helped, and later in the evening he took me out to eat just for a change of scenery.

Getting Ready for Cai: The alphabet wall is done (pictures coming soon). I still have this urge to go out and buy at least some of the things we still need (rather than buy it all at once), but I haven't gotten the green light from Steve yet. I just want everything to be settled. I really think I'm going to end up going early, although not too early hopefully. Because of Steve's job change we are without insurance until November 1st, so we're hoping that nothing eventful happens before then. I won't be full term before then anyway, so I should be fine, but it's still a little nerve-wracking.

September 22, 2014

Pregnancy Update: 31 Weeks

How far along: 31 weeks! 6 to go until I'm full term, 9 until I'm a full 40 weeks

Showing: I'm huge. At my shower we played a game where people had to cut a string to the length it would take to go around my belly, and everyone guessed bigger. My aunt guessed TWICE as long as it really needed to be.

Weight Gain: 22 lbs.  I'm definitely gaining faster now, but I still feel fairly good about the total. My face and legs are blowing up like balloons!

Maternity Clothes: Yes.

Food I'm Eating/Craving: Pumpkin bread and perogies, but none of these are major cravings. I'm having a hard time drinking enough water this week.

Things that Make me Sick: The doctor says the gagging and nausea I'm still experiencing is probably from reflux at this point. She gave me some suggestions for things that would help including papaya which has an enzyme that can reduce acid. Pretty cool.

Other symptoms: Round ligament pain in my lower belly when I walk. It's not every day, but when I have it it's REALLY painful. The belly band I bought really helps. I'm definitely having a harder time sleeping between the Restless Leg Syndrome and general aches (not to mention the bed-hogging dog and the snoring husband). Fatigue. 

Pregnancy Brain: Just little things.

Miss anything? Energy. Not waking up to pee multiple times.

Best moment: My baby shower was this week, and it was wonderful. It was so nice to see everyone, and I felt so blessed!

Movement:  He's definitely getting stronger, and more people have been able to feel him now including my dad, Steve's mom and sisters, and Steve's cousin's daughter. 

Gender: It's a boy! Cai Alexander.

Happy or moody most of the time?: Mood swings and anxiety are WAY better right now. Plus, things are back in order in the house and the nursery is on its way to being finished (all thanks to Katie), so it's easier to be relaxed. I feel like I can really enjoy the rest of my pregnancy.

Getting Ready for Cai: The walls and trim are painted; clothes and blankets are washed and put away; the closet is on its way to being organized. I'll be sharing how I made his mobile soon as well as the alphabet wall I'm putting up above his dresser, so you can look for that in upcoming posts. 

September 21, 2014

Nursery Project: Closet Dividers

I've seen so many cute closet dividers on Pinterest and decided I needed to make my own. First, I headed to Babies-R-Us with a gift card, hoping to find some cheap plastic dividers as a starting point. The store I went to had two styles, and this one was on sale. I was able to buy it for less than $5.


  • Plastic Closet Dividers
  • Wooden Animal Figures (I bought these in the craft section at Walmart years ago)
  • Hot Glue Gun
  • Decorative Paper
  • Pencil
  • Scissors
  • Glue Stick

I started by choosing the paper I wanted to use and tracing the divider with a pencil

I traced on the wrong side of the paper to avoid pencil marks. I then flipped the divider over and traced it again so I had a piece to cover both sides of it. Be sure to flip the divider so that it is a mirror image of the first piece you traced.

Cut out the tracing as close to the line as possible.

With a glue stick, glue the paper to the divider. I made it a point to cover the edges very well to keep the paper from peeling off.

The dividers I bought came with stickers so you could label each section. I would assume most come with these. 

I saved the ones I didn't use in case I wanted to change my method of organization down the road. Right now I just used the ones for clothing sizes newborn to twelve months. I placed the stickers on both sides of the divider.

I then used the hot glue gun to glue the wooden animals onto the dividers. Clearly they serve no practical purpose; they're just cute. I was really frustrated with the turtle because he pointed the opposite direction, but oh well. 

Here's how they look in the closet (sorry for the bad picture; the room doesn't have good lighting yet, and I took it late in the day).

September 20, 2014

September 17, 2014

Ridiculous Things My Husband Says During My Pregnancy: Part 5

Me: What would we do if the baby was born and was allergic to Finn.

Steve: We'd have to sell the baby. Finn was here first.

Me: Sigh.

Steve: Babies aren't allergic to dogs.

September 15, 2014

Ridiculous Things My Husband Says During My Pregnancy: Part 4

Let me set the scene for this one. We're sitting in the triage room at the hospital waiting for my non-stress test to be finished. The doctors just told us that the bleeding I've been having isn't anything to worry about, and Steve is texting our family members to let them know Cai and I are okay. I think this one wins for most ridiculous.

Steve: I should find a picture of a premature baby and text it to everyone.


Steve; It would be hilarious!

In his defense, I think he was overcome with relief and had taken leave of his senses. I tattled on him to his mom. She was not amused. He giggled and said, "That would have been funny."

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